The End

2038-01-19T03:14:07Z

(10:04)Tomorrow is the last day I will ever be forced to go to school by law. It's all over. I would always look forward to that day when you could stay home and wake up late and not worry about school coming up. It still hasn't settled in yet. I'm scared. If school won't keep me on track, will I lose all focus and direction? I don't think I can take care of myself like that.

I want to say thank you to everyone. If you've treated me good or bad, thank you. You forced change in me, change for the better.

Freshmen year I was a moldable blob, it was just like every year before. I guess you could call me a 'rocker' just because of that sweatshirt... I was on good terms with everyone from jocks to nerds. So innocent, thinking life was great. Playing Tribes sitting in the corner on a foot high stool. Social life = zero. Online social life = high. People thought I was in my early 20's... This is what I call the black period.

(10:19)Sophmore year... uh... experiences. Online time went down. Still no social life. (yeah yeah, I'm a late bloomer) I guess everything was alright. First experience with a girl even though we never went out. She was using me, but hey: thanks Lisa for showing me what to avoid. ^_^. I met a lot of people this year that led to strong friendships. Treehouse anyone? (grey)

Junior year was a lot of fun. This was a rise and a beginning of what you know today. So yeah, I lost a lot of weight from sophmore year. Honors classes that challenged the f*ck out of me meaning 3+hours of homework in one class alone. Computer time went down dramatically due to school. I finally got out of the house during Thanksgiving break! woo. Played some ID and robbed the theater of our greenbacks. Started going to LANS. I also found alcohol during this time. I still hate the stuff to the day. School is to blame for this. Yeah, I should have gotten into a lot of trouble during this period. Because of uh... stuff. But yeah, it was a lot of fun. We gave birth to the Dublin Underground: a group of us that just liked to have fun. My last drink was sometime near the end of May. This is my 'work hard, let's go be destructive' period in life. I cut Lisa out all together. I met Cri and fell for her. Another attraction that led to rejection haha. It's cool though. Another learning experience. Tomorrow, the last day of school, I was in an accident. My car was f*cked up. I slipped into a mode of depression. I did nothing for a whole week. No computer, walking to my grandma's house for 3 hours, crying constantly. It was all so painful. I wished that I had died in that accident, that I had a shitty car that could have incinerated when hitting the curb. I have just overcome my fear of driving that stretch a year later. I found a job also. (red)

(10:42) Senior year. I had been working all summer, I didn't get out much since my parents lost all trust in me. The longest/ shortest year of school I have ever experienced. Everything came together this year. All the small useless pieces of the puzzle came together. Maybe there was a reason why my schedule was changed? Maybe for the better/worse? Sacrafice. Had a thing for Theresa, more rejection. >_< lol. I really pulled myself together this year. Life was good. I still made some stupid decions. Sober for over a year now. I finally found something that closed the hole in the loop: Abi(gail). It was a big coincidence that we met. It was fun while it lasted but I would not go back to her even if she wanted it. It's a mutual thing now. I did so much for her. She also forced a lot of change in me. I started taking care of my health and body, saving money, and planning for the future. It's a lot of fun being with older people, they have more experience than you, so listen! I guess I opened up to my parents a little more this year. I really built karma this year. I sacrafice myself for everyone. I don't want anything back but I still received. It's amazing watching things go around and come back to you. (ie. prom) This year is definately full of good memories with minimal heartache. (white - purity)

(10:52) Life is amazing. I'm glad that I was never serious about giving up. People that I owe: Alan, Nick, Brian, Joe, Vic, Chris K, Cynthia, Ray, Derrick, Curtis, Cyndi, Crisp, Craig, Chris M, Troy, Mike, Justin J, Doan, Berch, Jason, Adriel, Tomoka, Wolfe, Gurske, Tony V., Sara, Michelle, Golda, Norman, Cameron, Christian, Kris, Max May., Max Moore, Giffin, Corey, Elaine, Norman Wong, Fiedler, Kevin, John, Jon, Maeron, Troy O., Rikka, Morgane, Jackie, Jen J., Jori, Matt Peterson, Chris Diaz, Drew. (11:06-sorry if I forgot you, IM me if you think you should be on here)

No words. No talk.

The End